I Want to Know Him
Worship Articles
by EXW Staff
October 24, 2006
By Bill Dogterom
There is a moment in any relationship, actually a
number of moments, in which you become aware that
something has changed, that the relationship has
moved beyond what it was into new and unexplored
territory. It is at once terrifying and exhilarating.
Terrifying because you have lost the naiveté of not
knowing, exhilarating because your past experience
has taught you that there is a richness to what is yet
unknown but waiting to be explored.
The more naïve, the more undeveloped, the
relationship is, the more likely the moments of
discovery will be largely unnoticed. They will appear
as casually and quickly as new landscape appears at
the turn of a corner. As the relationship deepens,
though, one sharp turn will bring you up short, leave
you gasping for air. You suddenly realize that this is
something different than what was - and that to turn
back would be as unthinkable as plunging on ahead as
if nothing had happened. That is the moment in
which faith gives way to faith.
It may be at the sudden disappointment of
expectations, or at the discovery of a new and
unsettling truth, or in the explosion of emotion at the
thought of loss, or the acknowledgment that the
other has somehow gotten into the deep levels of your
being and demands - invites - a rearranging of your
inner reality. You have moved in that instant from one
faith, from one standing in reality, from one pattern of
knowing and understanding, to a new and very
different one.
In a friendship, it marks the beginning, perhaps, of an
unspokeness that will carry the years. In a courtship,
it pushes you past the hazy language towards the
speaking of a commitment that has already been
formed deep within. In a marriage, it signals a new
phase of freedom in which the other is celebrated for
and in their uniqueness, with the conscious awareness
that the crucible has formed a stronger union in the
heat of a lifelong promise kept.
And in a walk with God, it yields the solid awareness
that to know Him is life, that one day in His presence
is worth more than a lifetime anywhere else, that no
price is too high for the privilege of embracing Him,
that all of my life comes down to just this one thing - to
know Him more.